As of yesterday, it's been three years since I started this blog. Up until this year, I blogged fairly consistently, and then for some reason I hit a wall this year. I've tried to make myself sit down and focus on why I just don't have it in me, and several things have come to mind.
- What do I have to say that is relevant and that will inspire readers to come back every day?
- What do I have to say that is different from what everyone else is saying and doing?
- How can I stop discouragement and disappointment from stealing my creativity?
- Who really cares about what you have to say? (that is a scary one).
- How do I stop comparing myself to other enormously successful bloggers who seem to have it all down?
A lot of this self-doubt came from finally getting myself out there and participating in two art shows, and not selling anything. I can't let that define who I am as an artist, and I need to refocus my efforts. I keep telling myself that at least you took a risk, and sometimes that's just how it goes. It takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there and to deal with (a lot of) rejection. So, I'm glad I did it, and I know there are things I will do differently in the future.
These are some of the issues I have been struggling with. In addition, it is turning out to be a very busy year. I am so thankful to everyone who does read my blog, and to those who leave comments. I am going to refocus my efforts, do some spring cleaning on my site, and beginning next month come back with a fresh perspective.